Long nights

Some days, motherhood is hard. I get a lot of help from Michael. But I hate Tuesdays and Thursdays. Once 6 pm hits, it's Mycah meltdown, dinner needs to be made, and everyone needs to get ready for bed. There is just not enough mommy to go around and it makes me sad. Tonight I wanted to lay in bed and snuggle with Mycah after a bath because he was so giggly. But I also wanted to talk to Hayden more about how his day was. But he had growing pains that I needed to massage, Nixon needed a drink, and Mycah just can't deal with being so tired. Not to mention the house was a disaster and the dog suddenly needed to go out. So there was SO much crying. These are the nights Michael has school late, and I long to be closer to family or friends so I can have someone come and hold my baby for a couple minutes, while I give some attention to the older boys right before they go to sleep. I hate that the last thing they remember before going to sleep is me being frustrated or barking at them to get into bed so I can hurry off and get Mycah to stop screaming. Oh well. Not every day will be easy. Tomorrow will be different.